Toubled soul don't lose your way...

I woke up with a very heavy feeling this morning, very discouraged. It seems to be the time of the year where sadness and depression hits everyone, but then again, I've had a lot of discouraging days these past six months. But I've also had a lot of good days, days full of hope. God kind of knocked me upside the head this morning with this verse. I sat down to drink my coffee and spend time with him, and when I opened to my devotional, this verse was the first thing I read: Why am I discouraged? Why is my heart so sad? I will put my hope in God! I will praise him again--my Savior and my God!
-Psalm 43:5

Some days, it seems like I can barely get myself out of bed. My eyelids are so heavy and I don't want to face the world. Those are usually the days where I end up with a hurting heart and tears for the past. Things I don't want to think about anymore. Things which I've let go of, but not completely healed from. Then again, pain takes a long while to get past. And the thing is, I know my pain is nothing compared to others that hurt. I look into the eyes of people I know, of people I don't know... I read stories in the paper, see things on the tv, and I see pain in their eyes. And I know this isn't the last time I will hurt either. The truth is, this is the kind of world we live in. One with pain and suffering and depression and burdens.

When I think about the hurt we all harbor, it's hard not to let it consume me. In the Bible is calls us to carry one another's burdens, and my mother tells me I take that too truthfully sometimes. I feel like I was born with this giant heart that keeps growing as I age. I want to take the hurt from people I see, or at least share with them the one thing that can sooth that hurt, if even for a moment. Hope in Him.

I've had a new song on my mind for the past weeks, "There will be a Day" by Jeremy Camp, and it never fails that my heart breaks every time I hear this song. I long so badly to live that day where there will be no more pain and no more tears, but I also know that each time I wake up to a new day, He has a purpose for me. So no matter how heavy my eyelids or my heart, I take that step out of bed hoping that it will be a new day. I know some days will be harder than others, some are going to hurt much more, and that it will take time. But that step brings a chance at purpose, a chance at life, a chance for my hope to keep pushing me forward so someone else may see. I may only be one person in this gigantic world, but it only takes a little bit of hope to soften the view of pain.

I try to hold on to this world with everything I have
But I feel the weight of what it brings, and the hurt that tries to grab
The many trials that seem to never end, His word declares this truth,
that we will enter in this rest with wonders anew

But I hold on to this hope and the promise that He brings
That there will be a place with no more suffering

Troubled soul don't lose your heart
Cause joy and peace he brings
And the beauty that's in store
Outweighs the hurt of life's sting

There will be a day with no more tears, no more pain, and no more fears
There will be a day when the burdens of this place, will be no more, we'll see Jesus face to face
But until that day, we'll hold on to you always