"In his heart a man plans his course,
but the LORD determines his steps."
but the LORD determines his steps."
-Proverbs 16:9
I've been going through the book of Proverbs and it's so hard to decipher some of the wisdom sometimes. Most of the time, the two line verses are really straightforward, yet, they run much deeper than they appear on the surface. I've constantly worried about what the next seven months are going to be like with my traveling the world, finishing school (taking the hardest classes all at once), planning my wedding, and up and moving my life. Not to mention leaving all my friends (or them leaving) and trying to find a job I'm happy at but pays the bills. Just when I think everything falls into place, something happens to shake up my perfect plan. I'm supposed to be taking classes next week but one of them might fall through which means I'll have to add it in the fall bringing me up to 20 hours of school. While working two jobs. It's going to be tough. But when I stop worrying about it, I can understand that God has his reasons. He doesn't give me more than I can handle, though at times it really seems like it.
Just when I stop worrying about my new life, in a new city, with a new husband and a new job, I might have to throw a new house into the mix, even though we already have one. Moving is not something else we need to think about nor financially support right now... but there's a reason behind it. I just don't know it.
I can't explain life and I'll never be able too. But I can throw out my insights in hopes that someone will gain some understanding, or at least find some peace. When I write, I find my peace because I know I will never understand my Creator and all of his plans. Yet I still write. And I also know that even if I write out my life, it'll change as easy as it is to press the delete button on my computer. I hate losing my work, but I'm ok with losing my life plan per say. Because the ultimate Author has something I will never be able to write. He has the perfect novel of my life and of yours. He doesn't have a delete button, only a blinking cursor continually moving and writing. Our novels are even already saved.
Just when I stop worrying about my new life, in a new city, with a new husband and a new job, I might have to throw a new house into the mix, even though we already have one. Moving is not something else we need to think about nor financially support right now... but there's a reason behind it. I just don't know it.
I can't explain life and I'll never be able too. But I can throw out my insights in hopes that someone will gain some understanding, or at least find some peace. When I write, I find my peace because I know I will never understand my Creator and all of his plans. Yet I still write. And I also know that even if I write out my life, it'll change as easy as it is to press the delete button on my computer. I hate losing my work, but I'm ok with losing my life plan per say. Because the ultimate Author has something I will never be able to write. He has the perfect novel of my life and of yours. He doesn't have a delete button, only a blinking cursor continually moving and writing. Our novels are even already saved.
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