Why is it that sometimes when we want something the most, we can't have it? We can search, and stress, and worry, and want, and ask, and we will never find it. Nor grasp it.
Until that moment when we stop thinking about it and our mind focuses rather on the bigger picture than the straight-lined want, we'll find it. It never fails I think need something right now, and nothing happens. Days down the road, months sometimes, I've forgotten all about that want and wham, there it is.
Tonight, it was coffee ice cream. Espresso Mocha Chip to be exact. I have had a craving, and I mean a major craving for coffee (well I always have a hankering for coffee) but this time coffee ice cream. I ventured to Wal-Mart on Sunday with my mother and we were just perusing the ice cream aisle, dreaming. We were talking about how good Edy's is and I noticed that had an espresso chip. Now, I'm a fan of the great value Mocha Chip, with a hint of Irish Cream, but I thought about just how good that name brand would be. I figured I'd wait a few days and when I got back home I'd buy myself a half-gallon since I'm really the only one who loves coffee ice cream.
Henceforth were tonight comes in. I make my bi-monthly trip to Wal-Mart and the only thing getting me through the journey is the hope of some wonderful dessert tonight. Just wonderful.
I get to the ice cream aisle and no where is coffee ice cream, let alone, Espresso Chip, to be found. I search through the Edy's section, I even browsed through the expensive Ben and Jerry's and other pints with the cave in of being ready to spend the extra bucks for the less ice cream. But no, no coffee flavors. I searched for the Starbucks brand and came up empty handed. The Great Value sections had been picked clean. Alas, coffee ice cream, a romantic movie, and myself were not meant to be tonight.
Instead, I bought a little cookie dough, (on sale for 98 cents) and told myself I'd be just as happy. And I am. I'm not settling, but waiting. I still have a hankering for Espresso Chip but right now it just isn't meant to be. I find myself understanding that about life sometimes. I'm going through a stressful time trying to get travel plans together, finances together, and my wedding planned. It's not all happening as I like, but sometimes things fall into place. It may not be the exact flavor I wanted, but, it's what I can get right now.
Do you ever find yourself craving something, or needing something right now it seems, only to understand that you really don't? Take a step back and look at what you are getting. Be thankful for that because sometimes our blessings come in different ways then we expected.
Sure, we want the good stuff, but why isn't cookie dough just as good, if not better, than espresso chip? It's still ice cream. God has a hand like that. The best part is that He knows what we need right now. He gives us the cookie dough so we can have a taste and enjoy it for what it is, then, way down the road, when we don't need it anymore, it gives us the surprise of a little espresso chip.
So have a little ice cream and smile at the hand you've been given right now. It's all that really matters.
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