Where this is all going is back to my dream. It was more about Jacob than Edward this time. I'll write what I remember:
I don't know how I got here or what led to this part, but I was in the water under a huge metal bridge. Only the water was quite high because I was close to some of the underneath support beams. There were two people sitting on the beams, a male and female. Of course they were vampires--I'm thinking a Victoria/James relation here. All I remember is that the male was gorgeous and I wanted to be with him, but he wasn't Edward. He wanted to kill me and so had twisted my thoughts to him. Somehow, I snapped out of it and he flew down to the water to talk to me, kind of an evil, teasing kind of talk. For some reason they were waiting out my death--waiting for someone or something. I kept screaming for Jacob, sometimes I would call him a different name. I wanted him to rescue me. Everything was dark and dreary and I needed the sun he brought. After a long while, I got really scared because I didn't think he could hear me in the distant forest. I knew I was doomed and just gave in. I think that's what the vampires were waiting for, for me to give over and just drown. I whispered "I love Jacob, I forgive you," took one last breath and just tried to sink. I flickered my eyes open under water and there was the male vampire, staring at me with a little I've won" smirk. His eyes had changed to black, he was ready for me. I tried screaming (even though I was under water) and the next thing I knew, I saw a huge shadow pass over the top of the water, pressure from someone jumping in, and I was being pulled up and out of the water. I kind of got flung onto the road, but I didn't fall hard or get hurt. He was careful and it was a soft throw, compassionate. I rem
ember hearing some growling noises and such, and I knew it was Jacob taking care of the other two. I curled into a ball and lay there on the street waiting for him. Finally, he came around the end of the bridge (in human form) and of course without a shirt. That didn't bother me at all. He was so tall and copper colored and gorgeous. He scooped me up, easily, and cradled me like a child. He ran his right hand through my wet hair kissing me on the forehead. I was immediately warm. I remember that feeling very strongly. I know what Bella must feel like to be in his presence because it was an amazing warmth of sun, of strength, security, and love."Why did you give up on me?" he asked.
"I didn't think you could hear me...I didn't want you to risk being hurt." (Typical Bella type answer...sacrificing myself for him)
"He shook his head, looked at me with such compassionate eyes and said,"I can hear you wherever I am and I would die to save you." Then he leaned his head down and met my lips. The first part of the kiss was beyond this world, literally the best thing I've ever felt, and I'm sure the second half would have been just as wonderful except that I can't remember anything else.
Sometimes I dream so vividly. But I'm glad it was a good dream. I have no reason not to love Jacob Black now and I'm very, very torn in Bella's love affair. I'm beginning to have one of my own with these characters and though I'm very excited for Breaking Dawn, I'm a little nervous about it too. I really want to like the ending to the book. I'm not sure if I want Bella with Edward or Jacob now, it's a tough choice, but I hope Stephenie Meyer makes the right one. You know the one when you're reading and all you can say is, 'it was supposed to happen like this...there was no other way.' I hope it will be worth waiting for, whoever Bella ends up with, otherwise, I'm going to write my own ending.
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